so i lied..

sorry about the delay.

Smashing Pumpkins - Thru The Eyes Of Ruby

Wrap me in always, and drag me in with maybes
Your innocence is treasure, your innocence is death
Your innocence is all I have
Breathing underwater, and living under glass
And if you spin your love around
The secrets of your dreams
You may find your love is gone
And is not quite what it seemed
To appear to disappear
Beneath all your darkest fears
I believe in never, I believe in all the way
But belief is not to notice, belief is just some faith
And faith can't help you to escape
And with this ring I wed thee true
And with this ring I wed thee now
And with this ring I play so dead
But no one's asking for the truth, so let me tell you
If you spin your love around
The secrets of your dreams
You may find your love is gone
And is not quite what it seemed
To appear to disappear
Beneath all your darkest fears
To the revelations of fresh faced youth
No one will come to save you
So speak your peace in the murmurs drawn
But youth is wasted on the young
Your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate
My love for you just can't explain
Why we're forever frozen, forever beautiful,
Forever lost inside ourselves
The night has come to hold us young

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monaboyd: 100 words: for ringlieder

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"Say you’re still in love with me and I’ll stay."

It cut, burnt, seared his heart: the silence - the sheer lack of anything but the sound of gathering tears, pooling in bloodshot eyes, threatening to recede at the rhythm of an iloveyou. Dominic drew an excruciatingly loud breath and for a moment Billy thought it was saved.

The tears found a home soaking into a white cotton pillow, masking the scent Billy sought so much and the clicking of the lock threw itself around the room once but throughout his head continuously.

The truth cut deeper than the silence.

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Silence - Delerium (ft. Sarah McLachlan)

Give me release
Witness me
I am outside
Give me peace

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe
That I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

Passion chokes the flower
Until she cries no more
Possessing all the beauty
Hungry still for more

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe
That I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

In this white wave I am sinking in this silence

In this white wave
In this silence
I believe

I can't help longing
Comfort me
I can't hold it all in
If you won't let me

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe
That I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

In this white wave I am sinking in this silence
In this white wave
In this silence
I believe
I have seen you
In this white wave you are silent
You are breathing in this white wave
  • Current Music
    guess.

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dominic/elijah
for ringlieder
a.n: never written anything like this... never written first person. i don't much like it. you don't have to comment to be polite.


I wanted to write. I wanted to write about you. My diary sat blank upon the table and I remembered you were born in the eighties (because it is of course the logical thing to think about). You don't remind me of big hair nor leather nor Meatloaf. Bat out of hell was my favourite song (I don’t suppose I don’t you…) as a prepubescent boy. Symbolic? I doubt it but nevertheless I found myself digging amongst long since abandoned CD cases and emerging triumphant (and slightly embarrassed by being so) with a copy of Heaven and Hell – Meatloaf and Bonnie Tyler.

Bat out of hell doesn’t remind me of you at all. No, instead I sit with my ink dribbling over the page in little anarchy A’s and Pink Floyd Rox shapes and smiling till my ears bruise. Bat out of hell is for me, not you.

It’s funny though. Bonnie’s voice is so outdated and strong but instantly as the first line belts out my ears prick up. And of course the telltale lines of turn around, bright eyes delivers me a vision of the first time you shot your blue blue gaze at me. Bastard. Blue eyed, puppy faced, smooth skinned, strawberry kiss bastard at that.

I’m quite shamefully lost in the song.

My page is left empty bar the words, over and over again: now there’s only love in the dark. Symbolic? Now I need to wonder.

I can’t help skip it back to Bat out of hell and smile again. Thinking too hard is your attribute, not mine.
  • Current Mood
    annoyed annoyed

emmooo

Probably one of those songs (as opposed to Celine Dion's 'On My Own') you'd play on repeat till the tear stopped really... i've dug up a bruiser this week

Bonnie Tyler - Total Eclipse of the heart

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

INSTRUMENTAL

Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround, Every now and then I know you'll never be the boy you always wanted to be
Turnaround, But every now and then I know you'll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am
Turnaround, Every now and then I know there's no one in the universe as magical and wonderous as you
Turnaround, Every now and then I know there's nothing any better and there's nothing I just wouldn't do
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
Well be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
Nothing I can do

A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart
  • Current Music
    Guess.
CAREY constellations

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Title: "Conception"
Rating: PG-13... maybe. Terminally crap with ratings.
Pairing: Karl/Orlando, hints of Craig.

Seems to have grown rather attached to two previous fics written, links to both are at the top of the clicky-link page [which takes you back to my journal, btw - if that's not okay, someone let me know and I'll rejig it until it's suitable for here...]...

( Conception )

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Sorry this is late.

Please Bleed - Ben Harper

You make me feel like a beggar
You make me feel like a thief
You make me feel like a battle
That cannot end in peace
You make me feel like running as if I’ve lost my nerve
You make me feel like crying
Tears I don’t deserve

Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage you have done
Oh, who have I become
To myself I am numb
I am numb, I am numb

Is this really living?
Sometimes it’s hard to tell
Or is this just a kinder, gentler hell
Turn out the lights
And let me stare into your soul
I was born and bled for you to hold

Never said thank you
Never said please
Never gave, reason to believe
So as it stands I remain on my knees
Good lovers make great enemies

Please bleed
So I know that you were real
So I know that you could feel
The damage that you’ve done
Wow, who have I become
To myself I am numb
I am numb, I am numb
Good Luck.